Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Never give up

I have about 5 minutes for this post, but I saw this video clip on another blog, and it made me tear up.

Now, this is the 2nd time in a week that I've teared up and both times yoga was involved.  On Saturday I woke up from this weird and bad dream in which I was trying to re-learn how to do a handstand.  Surprisingly, it wasn't my Dupuytren's hands preventing me - for some reason I just couldn't get my legs up off the floor. I tried over and over again, and the dream yoga instructor was saying "I'm sorry. I just can't help you. I don't think you will be able to do it."

So okay. That is not the part where I got teary eyed. It was just a dream, so I dismissed it as an anxiety dream manifest as a goal I'd like to achieve. My fears and physical vulnerability, blah blah blah.  Basically I just got up and carried on with my day.  My day included Zumba!. Do you Zumba?!  No? Well, it's a pretty pre-packaged routine franchise of some sort, but I think it's fun. I like learning the dance moves and the music is good.

In the middle of Zumba! I finished a particularly tricky dance move song, and at the end I felt triumphant. And the yoga anxiety dream came flooding into my brain, and I teared up. Out of gratitude maybe? That I can still move around and learn new things and so nothing is ruled out. Don't give up.

It lasted like 2 seconds because the next song started and it was time to dance some more.

Anyway, the blog I saw this on is called Ninjabetic, or The B.A.D. Blog. Ninjabetic - I love that.  And B.A.D stands for "born again diabetic".  Who doesn't need to be reborn, right?
Just reading his post was moving because I too suffer from Hypercritical Inner VoicE Syndrome, or HIVES as I like to call it (actually I just now made that up).

This video is awesome and moving and it reminds me that I was right on Saturday. Never give up.


  1. Why is it so easy to cheer everyone else on but ourselves? It drives me mad!

    There is so much we accomplish just living with diabetes that we should be proud of. We can do anything!!!

  2. That is a good video. I even like the music with it. (smile)
    The amazing thing is the guy has before pictures. I sure didn't want pictures taken of my that showed me at my worst. I have actually gotten pretty complacent about getting more movement lately. I am moving really well compared to what I used to and I was thinking that I am moving "good enough".

    Yesterday my son suggested that I buy a bike. The idea did not strike me as stupid this time; it struck me as a LOT of work to improve to that point with no guarantees that I will get there. Is it worth the work? That guy in the video- running at the end- is very thought provoking to me.


Awesome people speak up!